Never Learn.

i slept at 4+am last night haha.
yueshan came over!
to study but halfway through she started talking about her church camp.
and elaborated to me all that she learnt.

it seems to teach me something too.
how it is impossible, and also why there could possibly be a reason behind all this.
A reason why things are not working out the way i want it to.
somehow the realisation brought some sort of comfort.
It is a pity, but because i can understand better now, instead of asking all the "why"s,
so... in a way, thank you yueshan(:

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i wonder if the following i had back then,
still comes to my blog every now and then.
hahaha.
i have always appreciated that people actually bothers to read about my life,
or more like derive entertainment from my life HAHAHA.
i think i was funnier back then,
BUT HEY I AM STILL FUNNY NOW :D

it comes as a surprise on who actually reads my blog back in the secondary school days.
to be frank, i dont know if it is better if

1) people read because um it will be equal to dejavu in my secondary school days.
    i must admit that my blog created alot of trouble between me and my parents.
    so...HI MUM&DAD I HOPE YOURE NOT READING NOW BECAUSE..*cricket sounds*
    HAHAHAHA.
    somehow reminds me of the shop-for-prom-dress incident.

from what i remembered, it went something like this:

(i was with the clique shopping for prom dresses)

me: " omg this weddingish dress is so nice. WHO WANTS TO BE MY GROOM?"
-silence-
filzah: "KRICK KRICK KRICK..."

HAHAHA.


2) no one reads. okay la quite sad HAHA but it will be like talking to myself anyway quite fun.

okay la i hope people still read. *sob* );
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huixuan's tongue damn long!!

tbh i cant figure out which is the nice one we agreed on so...SPAM.

WHOA SHIT MY FACE DAMN NICE SIA HAHAHA I LIKE.

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i am on a healthy diet!
breakfast- porridge most of the time, variations sometimes.
lunch-rice/noodles
dinner- oat

no snacking whatsoever.
TMR MORNING MACS BREAKFAST OMG but aiya
me and daph making exception on our diets for each other<3

ys said it takes 10-15 days to acquire a habit so...IM DETERMINED *clenches fists*

midyears is coming and i dont know if i should actually be scared that i feel no fear or whatsoever.
i am just...AT PEACE HAHAHA.
that is good somehow. dont see a point in stressing myself out since stress doesnt help me in any way.

hope things will get better x.

OH CHARMAINE FROM EWF(new manager) TEXTED ME TO WORK!!
I WAS SO HAPPY I ALMOST CRIED.
then i really wanted to cry when i rejected her and felt my heart sink.
sigh.

pw nowww byeee.